I wanted to say that I have mostly recovered from the problems of last night, and blame Caroline for most of the repair.  Every time even her voice touches me I feel better, although she is not “competing for me” — I only hear from her every few months, she’s just the beautiful butterfly who flits in and out of my life and makes things better for the short time we are in touch.  She called me tonight, and said all the same things my other friends were saying, but said them enough differently that I listened and could use them.  Thank you, Princess.

I neglected to mention that the head of my spiritual Family came for a visit a few nights ago, and she said that I was doing better than anyone could expect, and that the hospital would not be a good place for me.  This means something, as she is a psych R.N. at the local hospital mental wing.  There was a lot of good in that conversation, which should remain private.

I talked with V. tonight.  We’re still feeling each other out, and it will be worth it to take all the time it takes to determine if a relationship is the direction we should take.  It is possible we may find other values for each other, or not anything… but we are taking the time.  If I can stick to my guns, no decision will be made until August of ’08… and even then it should remain a tentative decision.

Got a nice supportive email from Kayla about my current situation.  I’m glad that the people who find they cannot live with me still understand that I love them, and they love me enough to write and offer support.

Hugs,
Me