{"id":120,"date":"2013-04-12T22:53:03","date_gmt":"2013-04-13T02:53:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/peacefulhippo.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/12\/realization\/"},"modified":"2013-04-12T22:53:03","modified_gmt":"2013-04-13T02:53:03","slug":"realization","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/2013\/04\/12\/realization\/","title":{"rendered":"Realization"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I figured out why I am so scared in this relationship, so fragile in the evenings (two different insights).<\/p>\n<p>First, this relationship offers me EVERYTHING I ever wanted &#8212; a beautiful, intelligent, sensual High Priestess who is attracted to me and trusts me, a beautiful little girl who also trusts and loves me, a house that feels like Home, and all the loving animals who inhabit and surround the place, as well as mostly clearly-defined duties and ways I can make them feel spoiled while not (often) stretching beyond my capabilities. THE WORLD WOULD END IF I LOST THIS. That&#8217;s only slightly more dramatic than it actually is.<\/p>\n<p>And I&#8217;ve been taking my responsibilities so seriously that I am not getting as much sleep as others in the household. I never was good for much at night when sleepy &#8212; either cranky or whiny, leaning toward the latter.<\/p>\n<p>So I told my love of this, and will try to dial down the urgency and just live the life.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND THE GODDESS WHO SHOVED ME AT THEM.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Hugs,<\/p>\n<p>Me<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I figured out why I am so scared in this relationship, so fragile in the evenings (two different insights). First, this relationship offers me EVERYTHING I ever wanted &#8212; a beautiful, intelligent, sensual High Priestess who is attracted to me and trusts me, a beautiful little girl who also trusts and loves me, a house [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-120","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=120"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=120"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=120"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/peacefulhippo.us\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=120"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}