Last night, Sunshine had enough. It wasn’t easy for her to leave, but she went to spend the night with a friend.<\/p>\n
Yes, it hurt. Yes, I love her with my whole heart. But the relief of not having to cater to her every insecurity for one night was enormous. It got to where everything I said was mis-heard and everything I didn’t say was mind-read (incorrectly).<\/p>\n
I don’t know where we are going from here. My life would be easier – and emptier – without her. I have enough money to live on if I’m not paying for the gas in her truck, it’s that simple. But simple isn’t always what we want, is it? Some logistics issues, finding her a place to live and paying for it, finding me a mattress and her a frame and boxspring… but are we breaking up, or is this just a get-away-from-it-all?<\/p>\n
I’m sure she is reading this and thinking I don’t love her anymore. That is not true. Maybe we are supposed to not be living together, maybe she triggers some of the worst things in me, maybe I do that for her, but there is no doubt in my mind that we are still completely in love. However, she has made it clear over and over again that she wants to be in Nashville, a place I have no desire whatever to live in or near. I don’t know what we’re going to do about our conference next month or our convention in January, for which we already have tickets – my suggestion would be to go together anyhow. We love each other more than enough to spend a night or weekend together.<\/p>\n
I’m trying to get ready for the Pagan Prison Ministry big bash, to be held Oct 27 — a complete Pagan Festival held within the walls of Foothills Correctional Facility in Morganton, NC. I have a workshop, another workshop of music, and probably a performance. Could be fun. Thanks to Darla Kay Wynne and all her perspicacity in making this happen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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