Well, I need to chide myself for not posting again. Bad Mossy-poo.
Life is going very well… even if my Mom is mad at me. Andarea and Andy have become my family. Andarea and I will be getting handfasted at the end of the month. And we just got back a positive pregnancy test.
At the last Asheville Homeless Network meeting, Treasurer Amy and Vice President Mary resigned, they just had too many things to do. They will both continue as members and help out as they can. Andarea was elected President after I stepped down to take the Treasurer job, and Mark Maloy was elected VP. I have been trying to find someone better qualified than I to run this show, and Andarea has stepped right in and done all the things I should have been doing were I the right person for the job. Now I can just run the databases and spreadsheets and keep the thing solvent, which is what I’m best at.
I had a wonderful email from my daughter today. Thank you, Chandra.
Asheville Radical Mental Health Collective had their first meeting of the season indoors. The room was nice. I think I’m taking a break from it for a while, but Andy will keep going.
Andy is also representing AHN and our family at several of the Homeless Initiate (aka Asheville 10-year Plan to End Homelessness) meetings. I’m also taking Andy with me to the Asheville-Buncombe Coalition for the Homeless (local service providers) meeting tomorrow, and he will sit in for me and AHN at future meetings.
I have everything I ever wanted except not quite enough money, and I’m working on that. Many friends have been bringing us food, which has really helped keep us afloat.
Guess that’s it for now. I’m whipping up another batch of my famous salmon bread, need to go attend to the stove.
Hugs,
Me
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Sex Osho
The Circle of Mahamudra
Sex holds great secrets in it, and the first secret is–if you meditate you will see it–that joy comes because sex disappears. And whenever you are in that moment of joy, time also disappears–if you meditate on it–the mind also disappears. And these are the qualities of meditation.
My own observation is that the first glimpse of meditation in the world must have come through sex; there is no other way. Meditation must have entered into life through sex, because this is the most meditative phenomenon–if you understand it, if you go deep into it, if you just don’t use it like a drug. Then slowly, slowly, as more understanding grows, the hankering disappears, and one day comes of great freedom when sex no longer haunts you. Then one is quiet, silent, utterly oneself. The need for the other has disappeared. One can still make love if one chooses to, but there is no need. Then it will be a kind of sharing.
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When two lovers are in deep sexual orgasm, they melt into each other; then the woman is no longer the woman, the man is no longer the man. They become just like the circle of yin and yang, reaching into each other, meeting in each other, melting, their own identities forgotten. That’s why love is so beautiful. This state is called mudra; this state of deep, orgasmic intercourse is called mudra. And the final state of orgasm with the whole is called Mahamudra, the great orgasm.
Orgasm is a state where your body no longer is felt as matter; it vibrates like energy, electricity. It vibrates so deeply, from the very foundation, that you completely forget that it is a material thing. It becomes an electric phenomenon–and it is an electric phenomenon. Now physicists say that there is no matter, that all matter is only appearance; deep down, that which exists is elec-tricity, not matter. In orgasm, you come to this deepest layer of your body where matter no longer exists, just energy waves; you become a dancing energy, vibrating. No more any boundaries to you–pulsating, but no longer substantial. And your beloved also pulsates.
And by and by, if the partners love each other and they surrender to each other, they surrender to this moment of pulsation, of vibration, of being energy, and they are not scared…. Because it is death-like when the body loses boundaries, when the body becomes like a vaporous thing, when the body evaporates substantially and only energy is left, a very subtle rhythm, but you find yourself as if you are not. Only in deep love can one move into it.
Love is like death: you die as far as your material image is concerned, you die as far as you think you are a body; you die as a body and you evolve as energy, vital energy. And when the wife and the husband, or the lovers, or the partners, start vibrating in a rhythm, their heartbeats and their bodies come together, it becomes a harmony–then orgasm happens, then they are no longer two. That is the symbol of yin and yang: yin moving into yang, yang moving into yin; man moving into the woman, the woman moving into the man. Now they are a circle and they vibrate together, they pulsate together. Their hearts are no longer separate, their beats are no longer separate; they have become a melody, a harmony.
It is the greatest music possible; all other musics are just faint things compared to it, shadow things compared to it. This vibration of two as one is orgasm. When the same thing happens, not with another person, but with the whole existence, then it is Mahamudra, then it is the great orgasm.