Had a difficult day today… the Asheville Radical Mental Health Collective sponsored a Playback Theatre performance, based on the fact that the local service provider has gone out of business and we need to replace it with SOMETHING… this gave a lot of us a chance to get the topics in the open air, but it set me off… I just sat there, trying not to cause a ruckus or demand attention.  Afterwards Jayne had me over at her place, and I had to tell her that there was nothing she could do for me…  later on the phone I got to help Pam and Beth… Beth almost had me convinced we should be back together (it’s been way over 15 years)… but I don’t think that would be good for me either.

If I were to make a decision today, I would be moving to Indiana.  To have a chance to teach, not for a relationship.  But I don’t need to make a decision in my current state, so I’ll sit here until I feel I’m sane enough to do so, which could take as much as 2 years.

I also got to read to Frankie on the phone.  We only have 6 more (short) chapters left in the first book of Garrett, P.I. by Glen Cook.  She has really gotten interested in it, only took about 5 chapters to get there.  I love reading aloud, and wish I could be in the same room with to whom I am reading.

I think I’m regaining my balance.  Just a few months ago, it seemed I was walking the Great Wall, now it’s a thin wire, but it’s still a balance.

Hugs,
Me