I should keep this to myself, but had to write it down… fortunately not many people read this…

I was just lying in bed a moment ago, thinking about how proud I was of what I have done with myself.  I started talking to myself aloud, and was surprised to find it was almost a child’s voice. 

“I’m so much better now. I’m way better than they ever thought I would be.  I’m the best me I’ve ever been.  Some day I’m going to be REAL good.”  And then I found myself crying while saying, “Some day I’m gonna be good enough for someone else to want me…”

Didn’t stay there.  I was shocked that it came out that way, simple and childlike with the tears hitting me before I knew what was going on.  But I don’t live in pity parties…  felt it was better to get it down on virtual paper.

A part of me really does feel that way… lol as if I needed to say that.

Hugs,
Me