Break
For several days (I could look it up), I have felt like my sweetie and I have been on the verge of either a breakup or a breakthrough. I know which I preferred, but I don’t usually control these things. Well, yesterday while going to do laundry it came to a head, and while there were a lot of tears, we got the desired outcome. It’s always good when love increases, even with tears. Still have stuff to work out, but we’re even more committed to working it out.
It really hurt when she told me that I shouldn’t lose too much weight, that she couldn’t love me anymore. Somehow I got through to her that we are supposed to be supporting each other, and that I’m (really, she thought this) not losing weight just to show up the fact that she is not. I have tried to show her that I want her to become what she wants to be, and not control the outcome. She has been so controlled that she bought into parts of it. Well, she did a lot of thinking, and a lot of crying (which I did a bit of myself), and talked to a friend, and the outcome is she believes me, we are still deeply in love, and we even got the laundry done.
I had a friend unfriend me today for something I said to my old friend and inspiration, Moonlit_Lass. He said it was just cruel. I don’t remember saying anything cruel. Megan, if something I said hurt you, please illuminate me, and I am already sorry.
Hugs,
Me
I can’t think of anything cruel you’ve said to me, either. I was a little embarrassed that you corrected my grammar in a public way, but that’s certainly not worth unfriending, and afterall, you were correct =} Who was it that unfriended you?I’m glad that you and your sweetie are working things out. I tell ya, its not worth having if you aren’t willing to work for it, but sometimes it’s a lot of work. I’m glad the two of you have decided that it’s worth the work!
@Moonlit_Lass – Thank you, Megan. I don’t think it would be nice to publish a name or handle publicly… We’re doing a lot of work. I actually made it so my sweetie thought we were having a good day yesterday, hated to disabuse her of it on my side. I had some good moments, and tried not to cry at work (looks unprofessional), but it was a rough day for me. I hope it’s the start of my climb back.