Meanwhile, back at the job…

I’m doing a lot more work at work these days, which means I’m feeling more like I’m useful even though in my non-useful phase I was doing a lot more than they were paying me for… but I felt bad knowing my boss and friend/co-worker were working like fiends.  I didn’t have much free time yesterday, even though it was not a busy day on the phones and front desk. So I’m fitting in better.

Which is a good thing. The boss has to go to Wisconsin for a week, starting today, to sort out the effects of a passed family member, and she has to know that my friend and I can hold down the fort. I think she is reasonably confident of that now. I hope to survive the week, LOL, and still have her confidence. I’ve already informed her that if the place burns down, it’s Tina’s fault.

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I don’t know whether my sweetie and I are afraid that the relationship won’t work or that it will work… but fear, not hope, seems to be driving both of us recently. I hope we can turn that around. Maybe we’re so close to fixing everything that it scares us, maybe we don’t think we deserve to be happy, maybe maybe maybe. Fuck that, I want to be happy and I want my honey to love me (and vice versa). Gotta kick down some barricades now and then instead of waiting for them to be moved or removed.

Hugs,

Me