Wondering what it takes
I don’t know what to think of myself.
I’m a decent musician. I’ve managed a staff of wonderful editors. I helped found and settled the nation’s first membership organization for homeless people. I helped found a network of pagans in Denver, and was in on the founding of the first major pagan festival in Colorado. I have the most amazing friends, from Gianna Kali to Dr. Paula Caplan to David Oaks to some of the finest editors in the world to my wonderful Xanga friends (yes, I mean you, Moonlit_Lass). I am in the most wonderful Family. And while it took most of my life, my mother is even a fan.
But here I am, struggling with my life, with a wonderful sweetheart who does not believe in herself, and working at a minimum wage job (yes, it’s a wonderful job, helping hundreds of people, but there’s not that much future). And I’m almost 60 years old.
I don’t know what it will take to get over the top, and feel like I’m running out of time.
Any prayers, thoughts, endorsements will help.
Hugs,
Me
What’s “getting over the top”? I think when someone has something to look back on, it’s already a great accomplishment itself. If we’re doing comparison with the others (the population of the world/nation/county/city/neighbors), I don’t think it’d do any justice; because everyone’s different. Then again, what do I know? I’m still just a youngling, haha.Someone once told me something that I thought’s pretty comforting, so thought I’d share. How have you played the hand that was dealt to you? Now you’re at a certain stage in the game, how are the cards in your hand? What else you wanna do with them?Anyways, best of luck!
@s1eepy – Thanks for the comment, and I’d love to see more from you. Most of my life, my best advice came from youngsters. When I was 40, one of my friends gave me the best advice ever, and then a few years later I found out she was only 14 at the time. I’ve played every hand dealt me. Just haven’t had that good of hands, or haven’t played them as well as (it seems) they could have been played. That’s why I have all these great friends…and not much to show for it. I am a survivor. I don’t give up. But so far the best I’ve gotten from that is that… I have survived. Most of my friends have found ways to succeed, however that is measured. I’m sure it is rarely measured as having a Disability check and a minimum wage job. But then again, I have all these great friends. And I’m still around.Yeah, I’m all over the map on this one.